May-02-13

Well today was a nice day because whenever there’s no school, it automatically becomes a good day xD

But I woke up late because I watched a couple of nice and hawt JGV before going to sleep and also because i had a nightmare >< lol but here’s a random fact about me: I actually enjoy nightmares xDD

But this one was gross, I was using the computer as always until suddenly, 3 gross rats appeared, and I had to catch them and kill them barehanded all by myself… and one of them bit me. I was hoping the rat didn’t had rabies lmao.

Okay so I woke up, watched a couple of Junjou Romantica and then recorded only 1 part for my Warrior duet… hopefully I’ll record the rest tomorrow ><

And ughhh i hate this feeling. I don’t know why I came into facebook and suddenly started searching an old friend of mine which led me to search my old elementary school classmates…. and this feeling inside me is not good. I feel like so grossed out to find out what they’ve become lol and now I can see with clear eyes who my former crushes were eww i had a terrible taste tbh. Also, I dreamed about one of my kindergarten-elementary-middle and early high school friend. She hated me in my dream and I think that she hates me irl life too and idk why i dreamed about her… I guess I kinda miss her? We were best friends since we were like 7 or 8 and then I was so mean because I changed schools out of a sudden without telling her… and she was my only friend in the other school. Anyhow I’ll forget about the bad things. I sent her a friend request and If she accepts then great, If she declines it… then I guess its fine too.

She has a bf now… a “real” one. Almost everyone has one now but I honestly feel that they’re just dating for no reason. I don’t feel bad or anything I just feel grossed out hahaha xD hmmm maybe it is a signal from the world that I need one? But meh i don’t feel like it :/ The only guy who I ever wanted to be with me now hates me and disappeared and IT WAS ALL MY FAULT but okay i can’t believe I’m not over it yet even if it’s been more than a year :/ ughhh I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS OMGGG

BUT ANYWAYS I’m procrastinating my drawing “lessons” as always but no, I have to do it right now. I have my notebook and pencil right here so I need to begin. If i do it for at least 1 hour, then I deserve to read manga and watch my newly bought animes lolol

And hopefully this gross feeling will go away D: i hate people.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND…… The Uke of the day is Giou Yuki