I’m going to be an Au Pair in China :)

For those that don’t know what an Au Pair is: A young foreign person, typically a woman, who helps by taking care of a family’s children in exchange for room, food, board and learning the host country’s native language.

In fewer words, i’m going to be a live-in nanny while they support me financially and all, the only thing I have to pay is my agency because the plane ticket, school and all that is paid by my host family :DD Isn’t it the coolest job ever? lol for me it is >~>

Anyhow, not everything is rainbows and butterflies. Since this job is basically like being adopted by someone while you take care of their children, they are super super careful and exaggerated with the requirements. I have to submit a lot of forms and application documents, and some of those include a “Character Reference Letter” and a “Child Care Reference Letter” that should be filled by non-family members, in which basically they describe my personality in detail from their point of view, and in the other one they describe how I took care of random children and the activities I did with them.

The saddest part is that, I DON’T KNOW ANYONE WHO COULD FILL THOSE DOCUMENTS FOR ME. My friends are minors. I don’t talk to adults. And the worst part is that I’ve never being in charge of a child. Well, I kinda was when I was like 14, i took care of my best friend’s baby sister, BUT THAT WAS AGES AGO AND NOW WE LOST CONTACT. 

I have no one in this world who could fill those shits for me, and those are the most important documents for me to submit. I still don’t know how I’m going to do this… really. But I’m not discouraged or anything, I think I’ll get through this somehow, and that everything will turn out amazing :) 

When I said, “The hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life is High School. After I’m done with it, everything else will be like a piece of cake, and I’m going to remember the day I said this forever.” I really meant it. Somehow, when I look back at those times when I had high school shit to do, It seems more troublesome and way more difficult than my current situation xD

Anyhow, I’m praying so my issues can be solved really quickly. Please wish me luck. Please.

In other news, I’m feeling disgusted over my physical appearance more than ever. And EXO is making me feel really weird inside again. Not just EXO as a whole but each and every single member…

My new weight goal is losing 1kg in two weeks…. I really want to cut my hair but I don’t want to look all fat and ugly like an ajjhuma xD AND I’M SO HAPPY BECAUSE If Luhan could lift Minseok and squat like 80 times while holding him in his arms, that means that he will probably be able to lift my heavy weight from the floor when we meet!! XD I’m not saying Minseok is fat, but he’s a man and guys usually weigh more than girls xD so i’m confident~~~

Lately Minseok’s been playing a lot with my feelings. And he’s my new inspiration… he lost so much weight omg D: I still love you Baozi~ ♥

Anyways, please wish me luck with my Au Pair thingy ><

The SEME of the day is Miyagi You *w* it’s pronounced “Yoh”

he facepalms at your super white way to pronounce his name…

I’m tired but in a good mood, so I’ll leave you with a gif of Miyagi molesting Hiroki~ xDD