I don’t know why lately this past days I’ve been so depressed and so sad. I feel like my life is meaningless…. what am I even doing?? I always feel so tired but I don’t do anything. Literally.

I’m waiting for a phone call that will never come. I’m waiting for someone in Skype that probably already moved on with their life.

Then what am I waiting for? Am I even waiting for something to happen?? I don’t even feel happy anymore.

Actually I can’t feel anything anymore.

If you ask me how I’m feeling right now, I wouldn’t know what to say because… I can’t feel anything. Just pure emptiness.

Now I’m sure that my life has no meaning and I don’t even know what I’m doing.

And whenever I feel like doing something, I just don’t know how to do it because I’m scared. I’m scared of going out in public, I’m scared of meeting people. I’m just really really scared.

I wish I could go to sleep today and… stay like that. I don’t want to wake up anymore.