And for no reason. Really.
So this guy, X, the one I’ve been talking to this past weeks or months and I were talking about dirty stuff… yeah, but then I got bored and this happened:
Me: You never call me by my name
X: Neither do you.
Me: How do you want me to call you?
X: Call me slakdjalkdsa
Me: Okay
X: How do you want me to call you?
Me: Idk, call me however you prefer
X: How about slut?
……….
From that moment on everything became super lame. I was disenchanted by this fucking jerk, and of course, really fucking angry. Angry as fuck. I STILL AM, AND IT’S BEEN LIKE A DAY.
I started being cold but he kept talking and talking. I just gave short answers. Then he sent me some inappropriate stuff, but I got busy doing more important stuff and I didn’t replied.
So yeah, he hasn’t sent me any messages since then.
At first I was a bit sad because I thought, omg i lost a friend… BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? THat fucking son of a bitch is not my friend and he never was. Again, he just wants to meet me because he wants to fuck me.
He said it to me loud and clear. And it is the second time this happens to me but i am telling you, THIS WILL BE THE FUCKING LAST TIME IT HAPPENS. IT FUCKING IS.
And of course, this is all my fault. Everything is my fucking fault because I am so tomboyish and I don’t see how rash my words can be. For me some stuff may be regular conversation, but I forget I am a girl and guys don’t, so they get the wrong idea. But I am not stupid and this won’t happen ever again.
But even so I am happy. I am really happy this kind of thing happened to me again because it opened my eyes, and now I swear to the fucking gods, it won’t happen a third time. And I don’t regret what I did, said or what I sent. In fact I am really pleased because now he will always remember how pathetic he is and that I am way too much for some piece of shit like him. Being a piece of shit like that he will never get someone like me, nor any other respectable girl.
It all happened because I was feeling lonely and I literally have no one to talk to because I don’t do anything. I am not depressed, but I subconsciously became lonely and well, this kind of shit happens when you are emotionally unstable.
But I decided I will wait.
I will wait and let destiny bring me the best of the best and I won’t rush anything.
Because this could’ve been a really terrible and scary mistake.