I’ve always hated sports anime…

 It doesn’t matter what kind of sports anime it is, I just dislike it. In fact, I don’t even bother on watching them. I think it has to do with me sucking so much at sports and finding them boring. I was only a sporty-tomboy in elementary because sporty girls were popular and I was really stupid and an attention whore. In 6th grade I joined a basketball team and it was just then when I realized two things: 
1. How much I REALLY hated sports
2. And how much I sucked at them, it doesn’t matter how hard I tried not to.

But I also have another story. There was only one sport that I was great at and that I loved with all my heart and soul. Swimming. Yes, you read well, swimming. I started doing it when I was 4. My grandpa bought me a huge inflatable pool where I used to swim every day. When I grew up a bit more, he built an actual swimming pool in his house for me. I threw myself in the water from morning to night, and when I was 5 I learned how to swim without holding myself from the edge of the pool and without using any kind of flotus shits lol. I did it every single day and during summer vacations I practically spent 13 hours of my day just swimming. When I grew up my grandma and my mom insisted in making me join a team or something, but I always refused. I loved swimming all by myself and however I wanted without doing those weird things such as butterfly stroke and all that lame shit. I just loved to swim my own style. During elementary I changed schools to one with an actual swimming pool. I was so happy and so excited.
Every day I’d wait for the day we’d get to use the pool. But whenever we did, the teacher will always make us do those wierd techniques and I felt so oppressed lol but I did it anyways. My favourite part was swimming freestyle because meh~ i didn’t wanted to be an olypic swimmer or anything, i just enjoyed swimming. But then in 5th grade something happened. Since I was a tomboy (well I’ve always been a tomboy) I had more guy friends than girl friends, so one day while we were in the swimming pool, I remember my friends kept staring at me and laughed. I felt a little taken aback but I ignored them. When the class ended I remember we were in our classroom and I asked one of my friends… let’s call him “J”. I asked J, what were “E” and “O” (my other two friends) laughing at during the swimming class? And he replied, “they were laughing at how big your boobs looked with that swim suit.” I was so shocked I couldn’t stop thinking abou it for the rest ot the day -week.

And long story short, I stopped swimming. Also because I was getting really REALLY fat. So yeah I hated myself and my body and I stopped swimming forever. Not gonna lie, there have been days when I just stare at my grandpa’s swimming pool and feel like crying because I really want to swim again. But even though I lost and I still am losing weight, I hate myself a little too much for this.

Whenever my middle school friends made pool parties I always stayed outside watching them swim. Whn my american cousin told me she was in the swimming team of her hs I was so jealous, but I said nothing. And the worst part is that my boobs stopped growing in 5th grade and now, eight years later, my bra size is still the same as it was when I was ten lolol. 
So yeah, when everyone in Tumblr started rambling about the “swimming anime” I wasn’t that interested. I mean yeah the boys were cute and all but I hate sports anime so why would I waste my time watching that shit? As the day of the premiere approached, I decided I would watch the first episode only to see what kind of anime it was. I was already 90% sure it was going to be another boring and cliche sports anime. But when I finished watching it I knew I was wrong.

Watching free was like traveling back in time for me. That was actually the reason why I kept watching it. And It was really funny how Haru would always say he only swims Free. I felt so ridiculously identified wih him it even embarrasses me lol But yeah, watching it made me feel so happy and refreshed. And I really think that Free! Is the best title they could ever pick, because that’s The word. Free is the word I’ve been looking for my entire life. Right now I can say I am not Free. I don’t feel it anymore like when I used to swim.
Of course swimming is not my passion, and there are a lot of other things that make me feel completely Free like music and dance, but swimming made me Free in it’s own way. It was like my body was just water and I was a soul. So light, so free. I don’t know if you can understand what I’m saying but that’s just how I felt. Swimming would make me free in a way that music and dancing wouldn’t. It was another kind of free. As of now, I can only say that I miss it. I miss being there, enjoying and feeling the water, just being myself. I miss feeling free…

But my self consciousness is greater and I don’t know when I’ll be able to swim again… Even if I miss it with all my heart.